I just wrote a post, so I'll try to keep this one brief.
Day before yesterday, Q and I went to her parents' place to pick strawberries. Afterwards, we sat on their back porch and talked about our relationship and the problems concerning it.
I am happy to inform y'all that we worked everything out. We agreed to try to get this relationship work, because we know we can.
Don't believe a word of what you read in the last paragraph, it was all a lie. In truth, she took care of most of the talking business, while I focused on the listening part. It turns out, she does not love me like she thinks she should if we are to have a romantic relationship. However, she hopes we could still be friends, since she still does love me as a friend, and values me highly, and... you know the drill.
I can't help but feel like that's a bit selfish. "Hey, I'm sorry I can't give you what you want. But you could still give me what I want! That's better than nothing, right?"
Sorry if I sound bitter. No, wait, no I'm not. Right now my life holds no meaning and I have no real reason to continue it. However, and I know this may become as a disappointment to some people, I am not going to "do something" to myself.
That's all I got right now. Well, that, and slowly growing feeling, that I will never get into another relationship. Them ending hurts too bad.
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