Fat Kid Issues

The WrestleMania-trip is safely behind us. I figured I won't delete this blog, but rather finally start to write down the random ravings that cross my mind every day, in hopes they could amuse my (possible, future) readers as much as they amused me.

This first one is actually not written by me, but a forumite I know as Captain LeBubbles. It does, however, portray me, and apparently many others, quite well. Thank you, Captain.

"What are you laughing at?"

Try to keep your voice calm, add a curious note. Leave out the accusation, don't get their defenses up. Let your voice tell them you just want to share the joke. It's not about you, it's not about you. You're not making it about you, you just want to share the joke.

"Don't worry 'bout it."
"Oh."

Casual disappointment. Put it in your voice, show them that you don't get to hear the joke but it's not the end of the world, you don't care. Don't let them see how you really feel. Stop making it about you. It's not about you. They're not laughing at you.

They are laughing at you. Don't let them fool you, they are. You're just here for their amusement anyway. Why are you so bothered? At least they noticed you. As long as they're laughing at you, you're not invisible. You should be glad.

"Okay then."
*laughter*

Stop laughing at me.
why are they laughing at me?
Because you're just a joke to them.
i didn't ask for this
It doesn't matter.
please just stop
just stop
stop laughing
It doesn't go away. It never goes away. The voice just gets quieter, is all. Easier to ignore. But it's always there, whispering. They all hate you and if they say otherwise they're just humoring you. Laughing at you. Over and over, every day. People make it easier to silence. If someone tells you they love you enough, you'll start to believe it. But it doesn't go away.